Shame...

My prayer:
Hi Daddy!  I am so TIRED tonight God.  Thank you for bringing me through this day, getting me home, favor on the flights, helping me get the work done that needed to get done and even letting me be a part of Reverb online church tonight.  Today was full!  You are awesome God. 

I feel like I need to talk to you about something though God.  And I don't want to complain but I just don't understand where this was coming from today and how to get rid of it.  All day long, I was remembering embarrassing moments in my life.  Some recent, some from years ago.  They would come out of no where and I would feel immediate shame.  Now, I know that shame is not from you and anything that is not of you is against you.  So, logically these were attacks from the enemy. 

God, have I done anything to let the attacks in?  What do I do to stop them?  I kept trying to shake it off today and just as soon as I stopped thinking about one incident, I would remember another one.  Unfortunately, there are quite a few to remember.  God I ask for your help.

I love you God.  Thank you for being my Dad!

What God Said Tonight:
You heard me as you were typing.  You know how to fight this kind of thing but you did not think of it and did not do it today.  You need to speak my word against those attacks.  When the devil reminds you of shame, you tell him there is no condemnation in Christ.  When the devil tells you that you are nothing, you tell him that you are a royal priesthood.  When the devil tells you that you are worthless, you tell him that I say that you are worth more than rubies and gold. 

His lies cannot stand against the truth.  The shame that he brings cannot stay in the face of my love.  You are what I say you are.  You are perfectly and wonderfully made.  You are my daughter and I will not have you believing that you are less than apple of my eye. 

I love you sweet daughter.  I love you so much.  I get angry when I see him come after you but I need you to fight back with the tools I have given you.  You have reached a level of maturity that you know how to deal with this kind of thing.  If you were still a baby, I would fight it out for you and make him back off.  But you have been trained and prepared and you have got this.

Just remember what I have taught you.  Remember what I say about you.  Do not allow yourself to get caught up in the shame and doubt.  Do not accept those things from him. Don't accept anything from him.  Remember in the prison ministry, the one big rule in all of the facilities was to never give anything or receive anything from the inmates.  That is true of the devil, never GIVE him ANYTHING and never RECEIVE ANYTHING from him.  It is dangerous, so very dangerous when you do. 

I love you sweetheart.  Rest now.  It was a long day but I am glad we got to talk.

What God wants for Christmas...

My prayer:
Awesome God, today was pretty great.  I love how you put favor on me.  I love how you destine me to succeed.  God I am so very grateful for how you take care of me.  I love you so much God.  You really do guide me and direct me through every situation no matter how familiar or unfamiliar. 

Sweet father, I love you.  What more can I or should I be doing for you God?  What do you want for Christmas, your birthday, this year?  What can I do to make you smile tonight God?  You do so much for me every day.  What can I do for you? 

My God, my lord, my saviour, receive my love tonight God.  Let my worship be that sweet fragrance to you.  Cover me in your blood so I am acceptable and forgiven.  Let me love you tonight God. 

What God Said Tonight:
You my sweet daughter are always welcome to love me.  I will always receive your love, your worship.  You are continually covered in my blood, your sins are forgiven, you are always acceptable in my sight.  My love for you is so intense.  It overshadows everything around it. 

You did well today.  You followed my lead, you shared my message, you made new relationships and I am well pleased with all that you did.  I know that you want to make me smile, make me happy. Know that just you being you and loving me makes me more happy than anything you do.  Know that the greatest present you can give me is your heart, your mind and your time.  Keep spending time with me.

Spend more time with me.  Concentrate your day to day life on me.  Let me into every area of you life. Involve me in every area of you life.  Everything you do interests me because you interest me.  You are my creation, but I am fascinated by what you are growing into.  I love watching you grow and move into new areas and new seasons.  Remember when you use to be so afraid of the unknown or new situations?  Remember how you get paralyzed when you were confronted with something you didn't know how to do and thought you might fail?  That use to limit you so much but now, you relish those opportunities!  That is a great and fascinating change in you. 

I love seeing you step out in your faith in me and try whatever I put in our path. It allows me to use you in so many more ways in the kingdom.  I love that I can throw anything at you and you will give it a shot.  You have gained great courage in me.  And, the process of the growth and that gain is fascinating to me.  The choices you make and how you make them, I love getting to see that and see how it changes over time.  You simply fascinate me.  I love to see you in your day to day life and I love it even more when you invite me to be a part of it.  That is when I get see up close and personal all the fascinating things about you. 

It also frees me to bless you so abundantly.  As you allow me into every aspect of you life, I get to bless every area of your life.  When you keep me out of some area.  When you don't let me into your friendships, your work, your play, then I can't bless it.  You lock me out.  But when you let me in, start talking about me everywhere and just stay in touch with me throughout the day, it really lets me be able to bless you abundantly.  Make me a constant and complete part of your life and we can do anything. 

All I want for my birthday is all of you.  I love you daughter.

It is time...

My prayer:
God, alone today with you...nothing better.  I am not so interested in talking tonight.  I know you have me covered and my life is in your hands.  What do you want to say tonight?  I love you Father!

What God Said Tonight:
It is time.  It is time for you to see the next step.  You have waited and it is time.  I love you my daughter and the time is here.  You are about to step into a new thing.  You are about to see things you have never imagined.

I am so excited to see you in this next stage, this next season.  You waiting has been hard but good.  You will know that it was all worth it soon.  I love you my sweet daughter.  You are mine and I love you.  You don't know how great this next season is going to be.  You have imagined things, you have dreamed, but the reality will be so much more.  You won't be able to believe it. 

I want to prosper you.  I want to guide you and direct you into this future that I have for you.  I love you so much and want only the very best for you.  Your trust in me is not in vain  Your waiting is not in vain.  You are going to see such great things.  You are going to be a part of things you have only dreamed of.  I don't want to say too much more.  I don't want to ruin it, but the time is here.  You will see it all come to pass. 

Don't be afraid, it is going to be more than you imagined.  I love you .  Rest tonight if you can.  The excitement is thick in the air.  I have already begun the party celebration in heaven in preparation of the next season.  Celebrate in advance with me?  Love you so very much!!!

FUN...

My prayer:
God you are so awesome.  Thank you for all you do and all that you are.  Thank you for a great day today.  It was just FUN and I needed some fun!  We are about to embark on a new adventure God and I put it in your hands.  I pray and ask for your traveling mercies and that you guide and direct me every step of the way.  I pray for smooth travel and your blessings and protection over me, the airplanes, the airports, the hotels, my home, Tess, my family and my friends.  I pray God that you make me a blessing every where I go.  I love you God.  What is on your mind tonight?

What God Said Tonight:
Your safety is assured.  Your plan, your goal is already accomplished.  Rest knowing that I have that and stay alert for opportunities to be my light on this trip.  Don't go into tunnel vision travel mode.  Be alert to opportunities to do my will.  Be alert to the plan and purpose on your life.  Don't worry about anything, just stay connected with me and I will guide you every step of the way. 

You frontiers and your territory is expanding.  You will see such great miracles.  I can't wait to show you.  I love that you expect miracles.  I love that you don't try to find alternate explanations, you accept them for what they are.  I want to show you more.  I want to take you to places you have never seen and show you things you have never seen.  I want to walk side by side with you into a great future. 

You are my love.  You are a part of me and I am a part of you.  Can you feel me with you tonight?  Can you feel my presence?  That warmth, that assurance, that peace, that love, that is me.  That comfort like a strong shoulder to lean on, that is me.  That warm glow is me too. 

I love you daughter. Stay in constant contact with me wherever we go.  I love you so much.  We are going to see some really great stuff together.  We are going to have such fun!  Love you more than you will ever know...here we go!

Christmas present...

My prayer:
Mighty God.  Seems like a lot of things aren't turning out the way I would expect them to right now.  But I am trusting you.  I know that you are in charge of my life and even though some of it seems a little crazy, I know that you will work it all out. 

God, you are doing so many amazing things right now.  Why can't I keep focused on those things and not worry about the things that don't seem to be working out right now?  Why is it that it is so much easier for me to focus on what is not happening instead of all of the wonderful things that you are doing?  If I concentrate, I can go through every amazing opportunity, the amazing success and favor you have on me, the love you pour out on me, the opportunities to bless others and more. The great thing is, I have specific examples for all of it.  You are doing so much GOOD in my life right now. 

God I want to concentrate on that and stop worrying about the things that are yet to come.  I want to, but I haven't been able to yet.  God I ask for your help to keep my mind focused on what I have and not on what I don't have.  I ask that you help me to keep my mind on the joy you have placed in me and not on the pain that comes from this life sometimes.  I ask for your help.  I ask for a strategy or a sovereign move in my life, what ever you think is best.  But, I don't want to continue with this focus on the lack instead of on the bounty.  I love you God.  Thank you for your help.

What God Said Tonight:
Sweet daughter, there is no lack in our life.  There is only what you have and what you are going to have.  You have been promised the desires of your heart.  They are all coming.  You couldn't handle it if you had them all now.  You would be overwhelmed by the joy and not able to actually experience it. 

You have a lot of life left to live.  Pace yourself. There is not a single dream in your heart that will not be fulfilled.  I put them there and I will ensure that you see them all.  But, to see them all right now, all at once, would ruin your ability to experience them. 

You are right to want to focus on what you have.  Your life is very rich.  You have such joy and favor on your life.  It is good to think on that often.  Then, when you think about the other dreams, the ones that you haven't seen accomplished yet, stop thinking of them as being lacking or missing.  They are simply in wait of the perfect timing, the timing that will best allow you to enjoy them. 

Think of them as your treasure chest.  They are being kept safe for the right moment.  When that time comes, you will open the chest and realize the next dream.  It is my great wish for you that you always have dreams that have been realized and more importantly you always have dreams in your treasure chest waiting to be realized.  The anticipation of the dream can be as fun as the dream itself when you see it like that.

It is also like a Christmas present. It is all wrapped up and waiting for Christmas morning.  You can see it, but you can't experience it until the time is right to open it.  Every day you look at it and it looks so beautiful.  You want it now, but you know if you open it early, you will be sad when Christmas morning comes and you have nothing to open.  Wait on the right time and then open your dream.  It is best that way and I want the best for you.  I love you daughter.  Rest well. Shalom.

In God's arms...

My prayer:
Hi God!  Today had a little bit of everything--pain, frustration, success and great joy--a bit of a roller coaster really.  It really hurt today when I found out that someone was making fun of me behind my back.  I was hurt, got angry and almost let bitterness settle in.  Thank you God for making me aware of it and showing me what to do.  I have felt so much better since I prayed, forgiving her and asking you to bless her.  Something so simple, but it really worked. 

And then, on the flip side, I get a message from someone who you are blessing so much through the blog, reminding me what is really important.  Reminding me that you, your kingdom, your message and getting it out the world is all that really matters.

God continue to reach people and touch people.  I ask that you continue to let me be a part of it.  It is all that truly matters.  Everything else fades to gray in comparison.  I love you God.  Thank you for your healing power in my life.  Thank you for teaching me about forgiveness.  Help me to maintain that forgiveness and not fall back into the hurt and bitterness.  Help me to keep focused on what really matters.  Help me to stay focused on the people being blessed and healed by you.  You are my God and I am forever yours!

What God Said Tonight:
I am sorry you were hurt today. I want to just hold you and love you tonight.  I want you to know my love.  You will always have people in your life who are blessing you and cursing you. Sometimes the same people will be blessing and cursing you at the same time.  But you can always rely on me to be there to love you through it all.  You can always trust me to bring you through it.  You can always count on me to be completely on your side. 

It is good for you to forgive.  It is healthier for you and it shows others my love.  Forgiveness is good for everyone involved.  True forgiveness stays and does not fade away.  You will maintain your forgiveness if you have truly forgiven.  Sometimes it is hard to know if you have really forgiven until you see if you are able to maintain it or not.  Forgiveness can be hard work.  Keep at it though.  You know it is worth it.  To forgive easily is to live free.  You live free of bitterness and anger.  Free of the bondage of anger and pain.  It is marvelous.  True forgiveness will heal and set you free. 

That being said, let me love on you tonight.  You are my daughter and I love you so much  Let me wrap you in my arms and have you sit with me.  You are my most precious child and I love you. I want you to feel my love tonight, to know my love to the depth of your gut.  You are made perfectly and I love you.  You are my intended and you are what I intended you to be. Remember they made fun of me too.  You will wake tomorrow stronger because of today. I will hold you all through the night as you heal.  Sleep in my arms tonight.

Delayed rescue...

My Prayer:
Awesome God.  I am so very grateful for you in my life.  I am so grateful for your power and your purpose. I am so grateful that I can call on you in any situation, mine or anyone's and you will help. 

God, there are so many people in my life with major struggles right now, death, divorce, loss, pain, sickness, money trouble, you name it and I have a prayer request already submitted to you right now.  God, I pray a blanket covering over those prayers and ask that you move quickly and decisively in these situations.  As hard as it is to wait on my own stuff, I think it is even harder to wait for other people's prayer requests. 

God, I want to see you move in their lives and change their situations. And yet, even as I pray I can hear you reminding me of the value of the struggle. The value of waiting.  Maybe I shouldn't be asking for it, but it just seems like this time of year, your kids should be celebrating instead of crying.  And, yes, we are to praise you in the middle of our struggle, but...there's that word again.  I guess I should stop right there. 

God, I just pray your will be done in every situation and in every struggle.  I pray that you help them in the way that you know is most helpful and in your timing which is always perfect.  I apologize God for second guessing your will and you timing.  I apologize that I almost put a condition on my praise of you.  God I will praise you forever, even if you never do another thing.  I praise you because I love you, not because of what you do.  Although, what you do makes me love you all the more.  What you do reflects who you are and that is my wonderful and amazing God. 

Wow, this prayer is all over the place God.  It is hard to see people struggle.  I just want to make it all better and since I know I don't have the ability to do that, I want you to make it all better.  What I want more than that is your will to be done.  Your will is always better for us.  In the end, it is always better.  I guess I would just ask God that you bring all of my friends through these trials as quickly and as painlessly as possible; but, your will be done above all else.  In Jesus name, amen.

What God Said Tonight:
Where is all this confusion from tonight daughter?  You know me.  You know that I don't ever let my children suffer longer than what they can stand or longer than what is best for them.  I love my children so much.  Sometimes decisions are made that have consequences on the people who make the decisions as well  as on other people around the people who have made the decisions.  I cannot stop those consequences but I can make sure that my children survive and that the pain and struggle are turned around for their good. 

You know from experience that pain can be a great teacher.  You know from experience that pain can make you more able to love.  You know from experience that the learning the art of forgiveness is the greatest gift I can give my kids.  And through it all, I will love you so much.  I will love you through the pain and the struggle.  I will  love you when you are a mess.  I will love you while you make the wrong decision.  I will love you when you hit bottom and choose me.  I will ALWAYS love you .  You are my very own and I will always love you. 

I cannot promise resolution to every struggle quickly but I can promise you resolution.  I can promise you that tomorrow will be different from today.  I can promise you that in the end, it will be you and me standing victorious over the situation.  I can promise you the praise report you crave.  When the time is right.  When I am done and when they are done learning what they need to know. 

Not every struggle is meant to be a lesson.  Most don't start out that way.  However, I can use any struggle to teach you something.  That is one of the keys to getting through the struggle.  Look for the learning opportunity in the struggle.  If you don't see it right away, stay alert and I will show it to you. 

I don't delay the rescue because I don't love you.  I delay the rescue because I love you so much!   I love you too much to let you keep you old hurts.  I love you too much to see you handicapped in this life.  Life is a process of healing in me.  One day, we will all live in heaven together and when that day is here, we all have to get along.  We all have to love on each other.  Every struggle is an opportunity to learn to love more. 

Trust me to love you and your friends enough to make sure you have everything you need to face tomorrow.  I will see this thing completed.  I will not abandon any one of you, ever.  We are in it for eternity.  I love you princess.  Rest tonight and trust me with it all.